WOO HOO!!!
Jim has a blog. Visit it :)
I have been meaning to blog more often, but it seems like I have an idea and then I forget :)
I am going on a trip to vegas soon, with my parents. I wasn't orignally slated to go with them, but someone backed out, so I get to go in their place. It will be a feat of creative budgeting to be sure, but it should be fun as well ;) It may be just my style too, because my dad broke a bone in his leg/ankle, so he will be slower than his usual "let's walk 40000 miles in one day while on vacation" self :)
Grand Canyon and a lot of sight seeing, and signing up for books at every casino to get free stuff :) Sounds like fun to me :)
On to the next info on the trip. Jim is not going. He has finals to study for, and etc etc... so... I will miss him a TON. I don't do too well without him, so it makes me feel better that since his cell is verizon and mine too, we can chat for free ;)
I have been signing up to get free samples and stuff by mail lately, it's a fun way to kill some time on the internet :) - I can't say whether you will get spam if you sign up for these things, but if you'd like, here is the link I use most often :)
http://www.savingadvice.com/freebies.php
Enjoy, have a good week!!!!
Angel Chasse (again)
4/27/2006
4/14/2006
Grandma....I'm getting older...
Friday, April 14th 2006 11:21PM
So this week was pretty eventful. Not the good kind really either.
Monday afternoon my grandma and aunt came here. My aunt had some testing scheduled for Tues morning. They visited, stayed the night with my mom and dad, and then I went with them to the heart part of the hospital from 6am to about 5pm. Great news, my aunt Pennie was great, or at least her heart was. They took the pictures, found no blockages,and did no repairs. She just needs to figure out now why her heart is enlarged, which caused this testing in the first place......
So tuesday evening they go home, and I get some sleep. Cut to wednesday evening...
My aunt Shirley calls. Grandma has had a heart attack, and is being flown in the helicopter here. Things look grave Shirley says. Mom and I go to wait for the helicopter and to see grandma. We get into the ER room they have her in. They tell us that they were able to give her a medicine to break up the blockage, and it seems to be working, so they will wait til morning, and get her into the cath lab, to see if there are any other blockages, or if there is any damage... about 20 mins after we get to see her, she starts having this episode of bad heart rythyms, and says her arm and chest hurt again. The cardiologist comes in and says they will take her to the cath lab right now, we are shown to a waiting room, and told they will most likely find a blockage and clear it. An hour and 20 mins later, the dr comes out, says they put a stent in, and that she had a temporary pacemaker for now. Her heart rate had went down to 20 beats per minute, and she had a heart attack basically while they were working on her.... cut to today.. she is fine (as fine as she's going to be) and went home this evening....
So. I am glad that my grandma is feeling better. I hate that I am getting older now, and so things like this are going to happen more and more frequently. And, that my grandma doesn't take care of herself like she should, and there is nothing I can do about it. Even guilting her into feeling sorry for ME if I were to lose her won't work. It is clear that she wants to go be with my grandpa, but man... it gets a person to thinking. I don't want to lose my grandma, but I don't deny that it will happen. I don't want to lose ANYONE in my life, but I have to admit that I will. Ick.. I don't like the thought of it at all. Mortality.....We lost my grandpa in May of 2003.. as hard as that was on me, I can't imagine how it was for my mom. That was her DAD. Seems weird... and sad.. and at the same time..natural... circle of life, way of the world, however you want to think of it...
I guess I can at least take comfort in the fact that Jim and I are really heading in a more healthy direction. We are not oblivious anymore to what we eat, and how it will affect us.
But, folks, getting older doesn't seem to be all that it might be cracked up to be. Sure, I am old enough to vote now, and drink, and old enough to do most anything I want, but geesh... some baggage comes with this getting older junk. I would rather not have this kind of baggage!!!!!!!!!
In good news though, it appears that this apartment will not be nearly as warm as the one we lived in last summer. I am pretty excited about that :)
Angel Chasse (again)
So this week was pretty eventful. Not the good kind really either.
Monday afternoon my grandma and aunt came here. My aunt had some testing scheduled for Tues morning. They visited, stayed the night with my mom and dad, and then I went with them to the heart part of the hospital from 6am to about 5pm. Great news, my aunt Pennie was great, or at least her heart was. They took the pictures, found no blockages,and did no repairs. She just needs to figure out now why her heart is enlarged, which caused this testing in the first place......
So tuesday evening they go home, and I get some sleep. Cut to wednesday evening...
My aunt Shirley calls. Grandma has had a heart attack, and is being flown in the helicopter here. Things look grave Shirley says. Mom and I go to wait for the helicopter and to see grandma. We get into the ER room they have her in. They tell us that they were able to give her a medicine to break up the blockage, and it seems to be working, so they will wait til morning, and get her into the cath lab, to see if there are any other blockages, or if there is any damage... about 20 mins after we get to see her, she starts having this episode of bad heart rythyms, and says her arm and chest hurt again. The cardiologist comes in and says they will take her to the cath lab right now, we are shown to a waiting room, and told they will most likely find a blockage and clear it. An hour and 20 mins later, the dr comes out, says they put a stent in, and that she had a temporary pacemaker for now. Her heart rate had went down to 20 beats per minute, and she had a heart attack basically while they were working on her.... cut to today.. she is fine (as fine as she's going to be) and went home this evening....
So. I am glad that my grandma is feeling better. I hate that I am getting older now, and so things like this are going to happen more and more frequently. And, that my grandma doesn't take care of herself like she should, and there is nothing I can do about it. Even guilting her into feeling sorry for ME if I were to lose her won't work. It is clear that she wants to go be with my grandpa, but man... it gets a person to thinking. I don't want to lose my grandma, but I don't deny that it will happen. I don't want to lose ANYONE in my life, but I have to admit that I will. Ick.. I don't like the thought of it at all. Mortality.....We lost my grandpa in May of 2003.. as hard as that was on me, I can't imagine how it was for my mom. That was her DAD. Seems weird... and sad.. and at the same time..natural... circle of life, way of the world, however you want to think of it...
I guess I can at least take comfort in the fact that Jim and I are really heading in a more healthy direction. We are not oblivious anymore to what we eat, and how it will affect us.
But, folks, getting older doesn't seem to be all that it might be cracked up to be. Sure, I am old enough to vote now, and drink, and old enough to do most anything I want, but geesh... some baggage comes with this getting older junk. I would rather not have this kind of baggage!!!!!!!!!
In good news though, it appears that this apartment will not be nearly as warm as the one we lived in last summer. I am pretty excited about that :)
Angel Chasse (again)
4/09/2006
Friends....
Sunday, April 9th 2006 949pm
Friends.....can't live with them, can't.........
Ok, I have come to the conclusion that I am a horrible friend. And I am horrible at the whole process of being someone's friend. I have some online friends, and for the most part, I don't do too bad with the back and forth of friendship there.
Maybe the fact that I don't like to go out and about much anymore, and am always nervous, and hate being around new people, has a lot to do with my not being a good friend, but I am not really sure if it is just that.
I *want* people to like me, I really do. I *want* to have friends. But, I feel all icky, like I am going to say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, or embarrass them, or me... so then I stop going out and doing things with them, and I stop returning their calls, or picking up when they do call. I start obsessing over how lame I am, and how I should just go and see them, and do stuff with them etc...
I did this with 2 of my best friends.. well, more than that but these two in particular. Shannon and Shelly. I was close with them, they seemed to get me, and I seemed to get them. Then it started. Shannon moved away, then came back to the town I lived in. She called, and asked me to come over and just hang out etc... I did it like... 2 times.. total. In about a year... the rest of the time I wouldn't pick up the phone, and I was freaking out.. what would I say, what would I do, etc.... urgh.. so now she lives across the country, and I don't see her at all. :( big mistake there, she is a great person!!
Shelly, same thing. I had all the time in the world to hang out with her and become even better friends, but instead I stayed home, and made excuses for why I shouldn't go hang out. *I really am lame sometimes... truly*
I just think it is INSANE to not spend time with people that you like. I also think it is lame that being my friend should be WORK for the other person. Just ask my husband. Being my husband is about the most work one person can do... geesh...
I am not sure why I am posting this, I guess just to vent, and to get it out there... if anyone is reading this, don't alienate your friends... be a good friend. It's good for you I think.... I just need to take my own advice. But, that will come with time I suppose... we'll see
What else is new? Oh, it's been pretty warm out, and I hate that, cuz it signals that SUMMER is on it's way.... ICK..sweating is NOT cool ;)
I am now also addicted to "Family Guy" -- the little baby Stewie on that show is FUNNNNNY.... but anyway... it's late, and I should quit babbling now.... Take care everyone :)
Angel Chasse (again)
Friends.....can't live with them, can't.........
Ok, I have come to the conclusion that I am a horrible friend. And I am horrible at the whole process of being someone's friend. I have some online friends, and for the most part, I don't do too bad with the back and forth of friendship there.
Maybe the fact that I don't like to go out and about much anymore, and am always nervous, and hate being around new people, has a lot to do with my not being a good friend, but I am not really sure if it is just that.
I *want* people to like me, I really do. I *want* to have friends. But, I feel all icky, like I am going to say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, or embarrass them, or me... so then I stop going out and doing things with them, and I stop returning their calls, or picking up when they do call. I start obsessing over how lame I am, and how I should just go and see them, and do stuff with them etc...
I did this with 2 of my best friends.. well, more than that but these two in particular. Shannon and Shelly. I was close with them, they seemed to get me, and I seemed to get them. Then it started. Shannon moved away, then came back to the town I lived in. She called, and asked me to come over and just hang out etc... I did it like... 2 times.. total. In about a year... the rest of the time I wouldn't pick up the phone, and I was freaking out.. what would I say, what would I do, etc.... urgh.. so now she lives across the country, and I don't see her at all. :( big mistake there, she is a great person!!
Shelly, same thing. I had all the time in the world to hang out with her and become even better friends, but instead I stayed home, and made excuses for why I shouldn't go hang out. *I really am lame sometimes... truly*
I just think it is INSANE to not spend time with people that you like. I also think it is lame that being my friend should be WORK for the other person. Just ask my husband. Being my husband is about the most work one person can do... geesh...
I am not sure why I am posting this, I guess just to vent, and to get it out there... if anyone is reading this, don't alienate your friends... be a good friend. It's good for you I think.... I just need to take my own advice. But, that will come with time I suppose... we'll see
What else is new? Oh, it's been pretty warm out, and I hate that, cuz it signals that SUMMER is on it's way.... ICK..sweating is NOT cool ;)
I am now also addicted to "Family Guy" -- the little baby Stewie on that show is FUNNNNNY.... but anyway... it's late, and I should quit babbling now.... Take care everyone :)
Angel Chasse (again)
3/30/2006
List of sites I visit...
Thursday March 30th 2006 1:23 PM
I wasn't sure what to blog about, but I knew I wanted to blog... so I am posting a list of sites that I visit regularly, and I am asking that anyone who reads this (all 1 of you) LOL -- Suggest more interesting places to spend my time on the net.. :)
www.keloland.com -- Sioux Falls, SD News Site
www.usbank.com -- My Bank
www.rosie.com -- Rosie's Blog.. *SHE* always has something to say..
www.noaa.gov -- Good weather site
www.gmail.com -- Email of Course
www.justlu.com -- Lu's Blog.. check it out
http://drdeborahserani.blogspot.com/ -- Dr Deb's Blog.. check this one out too!
www.crossroads-community.net -- My brother in law's church website..
www.tvguide.com/listings -- boring I know ;)
www.ebay.com -- Ebay of course
www.marthastewart.com -- Queen of all things household-ish
www.realsimple.com -- Great all around site for tips
http://www.greyswriters.com/ -- If you enjoy Grey's...read this blog :)
Other than those, and the websites I use to pay my bills online (cable co, phone co, electric co, etc..) I don't have much ;) I have usually a bbs chat open, msn messenger, yahoo messenger sometimes, and google talk (cuz it is the only one Jim and Tim will use) lol -- boring time on the net, I need to start doing some other stuf online ;)... I did log in through my library card access to take the 3 sections of the US Citizenship exam though (or a practice test of it) -- I was quite ashamed that I only answered 75% of the questions right. That would give me what? a C? SAD SAD SAD... I am waiting for Immigration to come and deport me now... LOL ..
Rainy spring day here.. and HUMID already :( - Not a pleasant sign of things to come.. and EVERYONE makes fun of me for liking fall and winter best... I hate being hot, and I hate the humidity... it is soooooo much easier to put clothes and blankets ON to get warmer.. but, in the summertime, its not like it is EASY to naturally cool yourself.. we have to have AIR CONDITIONING.. ick...
Ok, enough out of me for today ;)
Angel Chasse (again)
I wasn't sure what to blog about, but I knew I wanted to blog... so I am posting a list of sites that I visit regularly, and I am asking that anyone who reads this (all 1 of you) LOL -- Suggest more interesting places to spend my time on the net.. :)
www.keloland.com -- Sioux Falls, SD News Site
www.usbank.com -- My Bank
www.rosie.com -- Rosie's Blog.. *SHE* always has something to say..
www.noaa.gov -- Good weather site
www.gmail.com -- Email of Course
www.justlu.com -- Lu's Blog.. check it out
http://drdeborahserani.blogspot.com/ -- Dr Deb's Blog.. check this one out too!
www.crossroads-community.net -- My brother in law's church website..
www.tvguide.com/listings -- boring I know ;)
www.ebay.com -- Ebay of course
www.marthastewart.com -- Queen of all things household-ish
www.realsimple.com -- Great all around site for tips
http://www.greyswriters.com/ -- If you enjoy Grey's...read this blog :)
Other than those, and the websites I use to pay my bills online (cable co, phone co, electric co, etc..) I don't have much ;) I have usually a bbs chat open, msn messenger, yahoo messenger sometimes, and google talk (cuz it is the only one Jim and Tim will use) lol -- boring time on the net, I need to start doing some other stuf online ;)... I did log in through my library card access to take the 3 sections of the US Citizenship exam though (or a practice test of it) -- I was quite ashamed that I only answered 75% of the questions right. That would give me what? a C? SAD SAD SAD... I am waiting for Immigration to come and deport me now... LOL ..
Rainy spring day here.. and HUMID already :( - Not a pleasant sign of things to come.. and EVERYONE makes fun of me for liking fall and winter best... I hate being hot, and I hate the humidity... it is soooooo much easier to put clothes and blankets ON to get warmer.. but, in the summertime, its not like it is EASY to naturally cool yourself.. we have to have AIR CONDITIONING.. ick...
Ok, enough out of me for today ;)
Angel Chasse (again)
3/22/2006
Most Life Changing Event.....
Ok,
Psychology.....
So... I got an abnormal psychology book. Jim is taking the class, and knew I had an interest in the field, so he got me a book, and I have been following along, and taking practice tests etc. We are looking at how stress or life events causing stress can affect your physical health.
So there was this inventory put together. Life Stress Units or something like that. Anyway, it asks you to rank some "bad things" that could happen to you, in order of how devastating or life changing they would be. In many cases, many cultures, the #1 thing that could happen was death of a spouse. I was thinking to myself as we were reading...yah, that sounds about right to me....
Jim stopped reading, and we discussed... He doesn't think that would be the worst. He thinks that losing his own sight, or a limb, something that was debilitating in his own health or life would be the worst. I get where he is coming from. It would absolutely affect ya. Whereas your spouse dying might not affect some as much as it would me.
That got me thinking about how different the world is for each and every person in it. I mean, not just the physical, like tall, short, fat, skinny... I mean like, we all live in the same world, but we all see it so differently. I personally have a lot of views that are considered "liberal" I suppose, but everyone is so different.
Not sure exactly what I had to add to this discussion, just really thought about how how you view the world really affects how you live, and probably how long you live, and how well you live.. I know, elemetary dear watson.. but... sometimes when Jim and I are talking, and he expresses an opinion or a thought that is WAY different than I would see it, it dawns on me how different people can really be... and shocks me to know that I am married to someone so different than me, and for the most part, it works out just great...... weird eh? See why I don't blog EVERYTHING that I think about? LOL
In other news, I wish that I had learned to sew when I was younger.. now I don't really have the patience or coordination for it... but my cousin (who is 15) is making a quilt.. a really cool one.. wish I could do that, but alas, I would end up all flustered and mad, so I will just pay her to make me one :) LOL
I am also making a calendar in my outlook to remind me of people's bday, so I can be sure to send a special note, or Ecard... if you want to send me your bday info so I can include ya, my email is mciangel@gmail.com
That's all for today.... ;)
Angel Chasse (again)
Psychology.....
So... I got an abnormal psychology book. Jim is taking the class, and knew I had an interest in the field, so he got me a book, and I have been following along, and taking practice tests etc. We are looking at how stress or life events causing stress can affect your physical health.
So there was this inventory put together. Life Stress Units or something like that. Anyway, it asks you to rank some "bad things" that could happen to you, in order of how devastating or life changing they would be. In many cases, many cultures, the #1 thing that could happen was death of a spouse. I was thinking to myself as we were reading...yah, that sounds about right to me....
Jim stopped reading, and we discussed... He doesn't think that would be the worst. He thinks that losing his own sight, or a limb, something that was debilitating in his own health or life would be the worst. I get where he is coming from. It would absolutely affect ya. Whereas your spouse dying might not affect some as much as it would me.
That got me thinking about how different the world is for each and every person in it. I mean, not just the physical, like tall, short, fat, skinny... I mean like, we all live in the same world, but we all see it so differently. I personally have a lot of views that are considered "liberal" I suppose, but everyone is so different.
Not sure exactly what I had to add to this discussion, just really thought about how how you view the world really affects how you live, and probably how long you live, and how well you live.. I know, elemetary dear watson.. but... sometimes when Jim and I are talking, and he expresses an opinion or a thought that is WAY different than I would see it, it dawns on me how different people can really be... and shocks me to know that I am married to someone so different than me, and for the most part, it works out just great...... weird eh? See why I don't blog EVERYTHING that I think about? LOL
In other news, I wish that I had learned to sew when I was younger.. now I don't really have the patience or coordination for it... but my cousin (who is 15) is making a quilt.. a really cool one.. wish I could do that, but alas, I would end up all flustered and mad, so I will just pay her to make me one :) LOL
I am also making a calendar in my outlook to remind me of people's bday, so I can be sure to send a special note, or Ecard... if you want to send me your bday info so I can include ya, my email is mciangel@gmail.com
That's all for today.... ;)
Angel Chasse (again)
3/18/2006
Cheap Healthcare... (has a price)
So, I have had some pain in my chest since about the 10th or so. Constantly there, sometimes gets the sharpness about it.. so.. I waited for it go away.. and it hasn't.. went to the community health place on Monday. SCARY PLACE!!!
The people there... scared me some of them. Now, don't get me wrong, I know that those people were probably sick, and grouchy, and needed help. But geesh, some of those folks were rude, mean, and just.. I don't know.. thoughtless maybe?
That got me, and my dear husband (tm) LOL j/k.... thinking. It got us thinking that it really sucks to not have health insurance. Now, I get disability... but that check is more than a household of 2 can make in this state and qualify for health insurance. So, basically, I was approved to stay home from work, until I get treatment that works and calms the voices, paranoia, panic, nightmares, etc etc... but... because I make over the dollar limit to qualify for health care with my state.. I don't have the means to get treated for these problems...
I know, I know, there are places, there are forms, there are this and that.. the fact that my husband is in college (so that he can make a wage that will support us both if need be in the future) that is a problem as well. We can't get on a subsidized housing list because he is able bodied, and should be working instead of going to school (according to them) -- so.. I get that there are rules, and life is hard, and all of those things.. but I am feeling like... ROCK --- Meet HARDPLACE
So, I pay my rent, utilities, phone, (internet, luxury item there), car insurance, food, necessities, old student loan of mine being garnished... and.. low and behold there is not 383 dollars left over for my to take out my own health insurance plan... WOW... I am not sure what to do. I find myself getting excedingly upset over this, and freaking out about it, but at the same time, I just get angry. If I hadn't let myself feel all of these things, and had just "powered on" and kept working and living the way I was before, we would be doing fine, and I wouldnt have these problems, because I would have a job, that paid the bills, and for health insurance.. URGH.... I think this is just a rant, but I guess I wanted to say that I am scared really to go to the community health place, cuz I am scared that I might catch something really bad there, or that one of those angry patients might just loose it and whip out their gun or something.. but I digress... Jim went with me both times, and I feel much safer with him there... all of this, and my first appt will cost me 52 bucks and the second one the same, and then the test at the heart speciality place will be TONS of money (payment plan for a lifetime) lol -- Ok.. Now I am just rambling on. All this to find out that my heart is really probably 100% fine, and that I should have just sucked it up and waited longer.
Going to the Dr always sucks, but this new stuff.. without insurance.. it sucks so bad a person could get a complex I think.....
A side note.... Lu, keep thinking, and believing that everything will be ok. That is really the best advice I can give ya. Hard and sucky advice it may be, but the best I can do... *hugs* Praying for ya, and sending you the best thoughts...
Angel Chasse (again)
The people there... scared me some of them. Now, don't get me wrong, I know that those people were probably sick, and grouchy, and needed help. But geesh, some of those folks were rude, mean, and just.. I don't know.. thoughtless maybe?
That got me, and my dear husband (tm) LOL j/k.... thinking. It got us thinking that it really sucks to not have health insurance. Now, I get disability... but that check is more than a household of 2 can make in this state and qualify for health insurance. So, basically, I was approved to stay home from work, until I get treatment that works and calms the voices, paranoia, panic, nightmares, etc etc... but... because I make over the dollar limit to qualify for health care with my state.. I don't have the means to get treated for these problems...
I know, I know, there are places, there are forms, there are this and that.. the fact that my husband is in college (so that he can make a wage that will support us both if need be in the future) that is a problem as well. We can't get on a subsidized housing list because he is able bodied, and should be working instead of going to school (according to them) -- so.. I get that there are rules, and life is hard, and all of those things.. but I am feeling like... ROCK --- Meet HARDPLACE
So, I pay my rent, utilities, phone, (internet, luxury item there), car insurance, food, necessities, old student loan of mine being garnished... and.. low and behold there is not 383 dollars left over for my to take out my own health insurance plan... WOW... I am not sure what to do. I find myself getting excedingly upset over this, and freaking out about it, but at the same time, I just get angry. If I hadn't let myself feel all of these things, and had just "powered on" and kept working and living the way I was before, we would be doing fine, and I wouldnt have these problems, because I would have a job, that paid the bills, and for health insurance.. URGH.... I think this is just a rant, but I guess I wanted to say that I am scared really to go to the community health place, cuz I am scared that I might catch something really bad there, or that one of those angry patients might just loose it and whip out their gun or something.. but I digress... Jim went with me both times, and I feel much safer with him there... all of this, and my first appt will cost me 52 bucks and the second one the same, and then the test at the heart speciality place will be TONS of money (payment plan for a lifetime) lol -- Ok.. Now I am just rambling on. All this to find out that my heart is really probably 100% fine, and that I should have just sucked it up and waited longer.
Going to the Dr always sucks, but this new stuff.. without insurance.. it sucks so bad a person could get a complex I think.....
A side note.... Lu, keep thinking, and believing that everything will be ok. That is really the best advice I can give ya. Hard and sucky advice it may be, but the best I can do... *hugs* Praying for ya, and sending you the best thoughts...
Angel Chasse (again)
3/06/2006
Why? Why? Why?
Why do bad things happen to good people?
Why do some people cling to and need religion and to be a part of a church, and others do fine without it, or with worshiping in their own private way?
Why do really good things happen to people that don't work for them, and then nothing happens, or bad things happen to people who work hard and live right?
Why do some people insist on pushing their ideas/values/morals/beliefs/expectations on you when you do not do the same thing to them?
Why does the world produce significantly more food than is needed to feed all humans, but we have starving people even here in the US.. one of the world's richest coutries?
Why is religion so fanatical? I mean, people really take it to extremes...
Why can't I decide with 100% certainty what I believe in. I am 27 years old!!!!
Why is mental illness called an illness if it does not make you ill, and if many folks think you should "walk it off" or "just get over it" - why don't they just call it the "you're lazy, emotional, weak, and incorrigible?
Why should I have the right to tell another woman what is right for her circumstances, what is right for her body, and why should I tell her to keep a baby that she doesn't want?
Politically charged, biased, controversial, whatever you think it is.. some questions that I had...
And... why don't people who do good things, and who are good people with good hearts prosper... yet others do..... urgh
Enough for this evening, I'm sure...
Angel Chasse (again)
PS. I saw "Walk The Line" -- I liked it -- it is the only oscar nominated film I saw :) Way to go Reese Witherspoon, congrats on the Oscar!
Why do some people cling to and need religion and to be a part of a church, and others do fine without it, or with worshiping in their own private way?
Why do really good things happen to people that don't work for them, and then nothing happens, or bad things happen to people who work hard and live right?
Why do some people insist on pushing their ideas/values/morals/beliefs/expectations on you when you do not do the same thing to them?
Why does the world produce significantly more food than is needed to feed all humans, but we have starving people even here in the US.. one of the world's richest coutries?
Why is religion so fanatical? I mean, people really take it to extremes...
Why can't I decide with 100% certainty what I believe in. I am 27 years old!!!!
Why is mental illness called an illness if it does not make you ill, and if many folks think you should "walk it off" or "just get over it" - why don't they just call it the "you're lazy, emotional, weak, and incorrigible?
Why should I have the right to tell another woman what is right for her circumstances, what is right for her body, and why should I tell her to keep a baby that she doesn't want?
Politically charged, biased, controversial, whatever you think it is.. some questions that I had...
And... why don't people who do good things, and who are good people with good hearts prosper... yet others do..... urgh
Enough for this evening, I'm sure...
Angel Chasse (again)
PS. I saw "Walk The Line" -- I liked it -- it is the only oscar nominated film I saw :) Way to go Reese Witherspoon, congrats on the Oscar!
3/02/2006
Blog Blog Blog
What is new with me?
We aren't having much of a winter. My Mom still managed to get bronchitis though. Glad she went to the Dr, and got some meds.
Jim is out on spring break.. woo hoo.. he's trying to decide whether he wants to stay with computer science (lotsamath) or go into psychology. We will see how that turns out....
How come I can't make spaghetti without ruining a shirt (or two) -- BUY AN APRON -- I should buy an apron!!!!! On the other hand, the spaghetti was very good. We like it SPICY SPICY!!
I try to be a calm rational person, it does NOT happen. It is so odd.. the thing we really want, is the thing we can't have sometimes... well, not odd so much as infuriating.
I am glad that Dr Deb is getting published big time, she is very smart if you ask me. She seems to know the things that are important to us :)
Has anyone tried Carmel Apple Microwavable popcorn? It looks good :)
Why am I me, why am I not the me I wish I would be? -- That is what I am going to think about this week.
Angel Chasse (again)
We aren't having much of a winter. My Mom still managed to get bronchitis though. Glad she went to the Dr, and got some meds.
Jim is out on spring break.. woo hoo.. he's trying to decide whether he wants to stay with computer science (lotsamath) or go into psychology. We will see how that turns out....
How come I can't make spaghetti without ruining a shirt (or two) -- BUY AN APRON -- I should buy an apron!!!!! On the other hand, the spaghetti was very good. We like it SPICY SPICY!!
I try to be a calm rational person, it does NOT happen. It is so odd.. the thing we really want, is the thing we can't have sometimes... well, not odd so much as infuriating.
I am glad that Dr Deb is getting published big time, she is very smart if you ask me. She seems to know the things that are important to us :)
Has anyone tried Carmel Apple Microwavable popcorn? It looks good :)
Why am I me, why am I not the me I wish I would be? -- That is what I am going to think about this week.
Angel Chasse (again)
2/16/2006
Grey's Anatomy.... And Me
I am sure that anyone who reads this blog knows that I love television. We pay more money than we should to have cable, because I am home all the time, and I like me some tv :) lol -
My newest addiction is Grey's Anatomy - I think I watched the first show last season (the first season I guess) - and then watched sporadically after that. Then something happened on one of the episodes, and it intrigued me, so I want to see every episode :) Lucky for me, season one's dvd is out soon, if it isn't already out. I really like Ellen Pompeo (Meridith Grey on the show) and I like the character of George, and of Bailey. So anyway, I love this show, and just found out the name of the theme song, so I will have to be looking for that. I really liked the 2 part episode that they had for the end of the superbowl.. sure, some of the drama was trumped up a bit, but I think those 2 episodes went a long way toward deepening our understanding of the different characters :) Ok, enough about that :)
What else have I been up to? Some introspection, and some crankiness. I have a headache that has gone on for awhile now, but my non-hypochondriac husband thinks it is a tension headache, so we will go with that. I have also been trying to keep up with him in a college class that I have interest in (abnormal psych) - and have been reading along with him in the chapters (from home, not actually attending the classes) - and I took a practice test and didn't do too badly on it, though it was not my best work.
Jim did our taxes, then found that we had an error, so we need to do another form to correct this error.. urgh... but at least we caught it, so it won't mess up his financial aid for school.
I made some "homeade lo mein" tonight, and it was pretty good, but I can do better. It is weird.. there is not much that I won't try to make at home at least once, but I had bad experiences trying to make fried rice at home, so I pretty much gave up on anything chinese-y - - but since this was good, who knows, I might try more exotic stuff. Jim is the chef in this family, but I do like to have a few things that I make well. Our friend Becky said the other day that she misses having our spaghetti, so that made me feel really goood :) that is my signature dish ;) lol
Other than that I have just been getting by. I know that I need to get back on my meds, and see dr's again and all of that but A> there is not money for that, and B> I think I wanted to believe that I would be just fine without that stuff, and that it really was just all in my head, and I could make myself all better if I just tried. Well... that would probably work... but.. and this is a big but... I dont really have the energy, motivation, patience, whatever to even try. I would really rather just stay in my little apartment and not go anywhere or have to deal with anyone, and not have to talk about the way that I feel, or the voices, or the racing thoughts, or the ickiness.. .but... even I can finally see now that THIS is not working either, so we have to move on to something more productive. I have some phone#s to call and ask for some help etc, but I just hoped it would not come to this, and I would just be able to make myself all fine again. I even thought that if I just didn't complain as much to the hubby, and didn't bring up how I was feeling, that he would think I was doing better... I guess I should have given him more credit, because evidently he saw right through that, and I was the only one believing anyone was fooled.. so -- I guess they call it mental "ILLNESS" for a reason, and I guess that even if you want it to, it won't just go away on its own.. although, that would be great, if you upstairs are listening, the "just goes away on it's own" thing sounds GREAT!!!!!!!!! So, that is an update on me, and what I have been up to. I still read a lot of blogs, and often have to tell my hubby what I am reading about, especially the stories on Lu's blog page at www.justlu.com --- she can tell a story like no one can :) I really hope this isn't as long when I hit save as I think it might be... but oh well.. I'll try to update more frequently :)
Angel Chasse (again)
My newest addiction is Grey's Anatomy - I think I watched the first show last season (the first season I guess) - and then watched sporadically after that. Then something happened on one of the episodes, and it intrigued me, so I want to see every episode :) Lucky for me, season one's dvd is out soon, if it isn't already out. I really like Ellen Pompeo (Meridith Grey on the show) and I like the character of George, and of Bailey. So anyway, I love this show, and just found out the name of the theme song, so I will have to be looking for that. I really liked the 2 part episode that they had for the end of the superbowl.. sure, some of the drama was trumped up a bit, but I think those 2 episodes went a long way toward deepening our understanding of the different characters :) Ok, enough about that :)
What else have I been up to? Some introspection, and some crankiness. I have a headache that has gone on for awhile now, but my non-hypochondriac husband thinks it is a tension headache, so we will go with that. I have also been trying to keep up with him in a college class that I have interest in (abnormal psych) - and have been reading along with him in the chapters (from home, not actually attending the classes) - and I took a practice test and didn't do too badly on it, though it was not my best work.
Jim did our taxes, then found that we had an error, so we need to do another form to correct this error.. urgh... but at least we caught it, so it won't mess up his financial aid for school.
I made some "homeade lo mein" tonight, and it was pretty good, but I can do better. It is weird.. there is not much that I won't try to make at home at least once, but I had bad experiences trying to make fried rice at home, so I pretty much gave up on anything chinese-y - - but since this was good, who knows, I might try more exotic stuff. Jim is the chef in this family, but I do like to have a few things that I make well. Our friend Becky said the other day that she misses having our spaghetti, so that made me feel really goood :) that is my signature dish ;) lol
Other than that I have just been getting by. I know that I need to get back on my meds, and see dr's again and all of that but A> there is not money for that, and B> I think I wanted to believe that I would be just fine without that stuff, and that it really was just all in my head, and I could make myself all better if I just tried. Well... that would probably work... but.. and this is a big but... I dont really have the energy, motivation, patience, whatever to even try. I would really rather just stay in my little apartment and not go anywhere or have to deal with anyone, and not have to talk about the way that I feel, or the voices, or the racing thoughts, or the ickiness.. .but... even I can finally see now that THIS is not working either, so we have to move on to something more productive. I have some phone#s to call and ask for some help etc, but I just hoped it would not come to this, and I would just be able to make myself all fine again. I even thought that if I just didn't complain as much to the hubby, and didn't bring up how I was feeling, that he would think I was doing better... I guess I should have given him more credit, because evidently he saw right through that, and I was the only one believing anyone was fooled.. so -- I guess they call it mental "ILLNESS" for a reason, and I guess that even if you want it to, it won't just go away on its own.. although, that would be great, if you upstairs are listening, the "just goes away on it's own" thing sounds GREAT!!!!!!!!! So, that is an update on me, and what I have been up to. I still read a lot of blogs, and often have to tell my hubby what I am reading about, especially the stories on Lu's blog page at www.justlu.com --- she can tell a story like no one can :) I really hope this isn't as long when I hit save as I think it might be... but oh well.. I'll try to update more frequently :)
Angel Chasse (again)
2/04/2006
The Superbowl
Feb 4th 2006 Saturday
This just in.. I might be the only person on the planet not watching the Super Bowl tomorrow...why? I hate football. I don't see the point of the sport, but then again, there are a ton of things I could spend all day doing that many folks would probably think were INSANE - like using the internet all day ;)
I do have some chips though, and a spiffy new www.fitday.com account where I am keeping track of what I eat daily.. get this.. it boggles my mind. My Basal Metabolic Rate (BMR) as it is figured with this long formula - is 2407 calories per day... that is supposed to be what my body uses every day just breathing etc... I don't see any way that this could be possible.. If that is the case.. then if I am only eating 100-1200 calories a day, I should most assuredly be losing some weight right? WRONG O -- not lost anything.. Well, should admit that I don't have a scale, but I do not feel like I have lost even one little iota... my husband on the other hand (who eats even less calories than I do, cuz he never cheats) - has had to put 5 notches to make his belt snug... urgh.. I am very happy for him, and very mad at me.. anywho, I am sure that insulin resistance and non working thyroid probably has something to do with my not losing weight, but... geesh.. anyway... so medication is a good thing in this instance for sure.. glucophage and synthroid are our friends :) right? LOL -- what else is new? Hrm.. we walked a mile in the skywalks today.. (again Jimbo had to drag me there) lol - not a lot else going on cept I am studying Jim's abnormal psychology book with him, to see if I would like/could do a college course in the future... so we will see how that goes.
That's all for now I guess
PS - My adsense is not working - all I get is the one ad for gulf hurricane relief. That is a a great ad, but I thought they were supposed to change? We'll see...
Angel Chasse (again)
This just in.. I might be the only person on the planet not watching the Super Bowl tomorrow...why? I hate football. I don't see the point of the sport, but then again, there are a ton of things I could spend all day doing that many folks would probably think were INSANE - like using the internet all day ;)
I do have some chips though, and a spiffy new www.fitday.com account where I am keeping track of what I eat daily.. get this.. it boggles my mind. My Basal Metabolic Rate (BMR) as it is figured with this long formula - is 2407 calories per day... that is supposed to be what my body uses every day just breathing etc... I don't see any way that this could be possible.. If that is the case.. then if I am only eating 100-1200 calories a day, I should most assuredly be losing some weight right? WRONG O -- not lost anything.. Well, should admit that I don't have a scale, but I do not feel like I have lost even one little iota... my husband on the other hand (who eats even less calories than I do, cuz he never cheats) - has had to put 5 notches to make his belt snug... urgh.. I am very happy for him, and very mad at me.. anywho, I am sure that insulin resistance and non working thyroid probably has something to do with my not losing weight, but... geesh.. anyway... so medication is a good thing in this instance for sure.. glucophage and synthroid are our friends :) right? LOL -- what else is new? Hrm.. we walked a mile in the skywalks today.. (again Jimbo had to drag me there) lol - not a lot else going on cept I am studying Jim's abnormal psychology book with him, to see if I would like/could do a college course in the future... so we will see how that goes.
That's all for now I guess
PS - My adsense is not working - all I get is the one ad for gulf hurricane relief. That is a a great ad, but I thought they were supposed to change? We'll see...
Angel Chasse (again)
1/24/2006
What is Art?
Tuesday Jan 24th 2006
Jim is taking art apreciation this semester.
I hate art.. I shouldn't really say I hate art. I hate things I am not good at, and things I don't understand :) LOL --
I am not "artsy" I must have a more analytical mind than I thought. I don't really "get" what stuff is sometimes in art. I guess that is probably normal, but I really would rather see a photograph of a person or a landscape or a lighthouse, than an inventive art project anyday.. We went to the local art center, and of the 100+ pieces they had there, I probably would have only chosen like 6 of them to own, or have in my home. The funny thing is that many of the ones that I did like, look more like patterns from Windows desktop backgrounds :) :) :)
Let's see, I havent blogged in a while, what is new?
Jim (mostly) and I are on a "diet" of sorts... Mostly just exercising portion control, and trying to drink diet soda or drinks, and keep to between 1000 and 1500 calories per day. It is not as hard and sucky as I thought it would be, the only thing that I really miss is that I don't have cake or cookies, or sweets around all the time.. not that I need them, but that seems to be what I crave.. and of course, anything carbs :)
I would recommend portion-controlled eating to anyone .... who is not doing it already... it is amazing to me when you follow the labels on stuff, and eat just one portion's worth, how much you really can eat in a day and still maintain low calories. It is just that before, Jim and I would make a ton of food, and eat it all.. Now we try to make the equivalent of one portion per person of each thing... the portions ARE a lot smaller, but most times, we feel full, and aren't feeling too deprived.. Now I just need to incorporate a WHOLE LOT of exersise into the routine... I hate that... :)
Angel Chasse (again)
Jim is taking art apreciation this semester.
I hate art.. I shouldn't really say I hate art. I hate things I am not good at, and things I don't understand :) LOL --
I am not "artsy" I must have a more analytical mind than I thought. I don't really "get" what stuff is sometimes in art. I guess that is probably normal, but I really would rather see a photograph of a person or a landscape or a lighthouse, than an inventive art project anyday.. We went to the local art center, and of the 100+ pieces they had there, I probably would have only chosen like 6 of them to own, or have in my home. The funny thing is that many of the ones that I did like, look more like patterns from Windows desktop backgrounds :) :) :)
Let's see, I havent blogged in a while, what is new?
Jim (mostly) and I are on a "diet" of sorts... Mostly just exercising portion control, and trying to drink diet soda or drinks, and keep to between 1000 and 1500 calories per day. It is not as hard and sucky as I thought it would be, the only thing that I really miss is that I don't have cake or cookies, or sweets around all the time.. not that I need them, but that seems to be what I crave.. and of course, anything carbs :)
I would recommend portion-controlled eating to anyone .... who is not doing it already... it is amazing to me when you follow the labels on stuff, and eat just one portion's worth, how much you really can eat in a day and still maintain low calories. It is just that before, Jim and I would make a ton of food, and eat it all.. Now we try to make the equivalent of one portion per person of each thing... the portions ARE a lot smaller, but most times, we feel full, and aren't feeling too deprived.. Now I just need to incorporate a WHOLE LOT of exersise into the routine... I hate that... :)
Angel Chasse (again)
1/09/2006
Married Life AKA I love Jim
Jim and I have been married for 8 years. We have known each other for 9 years.
When we first met, I made a ton of mistakes. The worst of those mistakes was running to my mom every time we had a normal, average, married people do this kind of fight. The reason I say that this was the worst mistake is... it gave my mom and dad the wrong idea about Jim. Jim is caring, loving, sweet, respectful, treats me better than I deserve, and better than I treat him. But see, for the first couple of years of our marriage, they didn't know this. They didn't know Jim very well, and when they did hear about him, it was through me, and many times after we had had a fight, and I was steamed. I just want to tell everyone that that was wrong. Choosing to marry Jim is the one, single, best decision I have ever made. Probably the best one that I will ever make. Jim and I have had our share of fights, and disagree on many things. But he loves me, and I love him. The kind of love that makes you feel badly about ignoring him, while you are ignoring him... the kind of love that has you wanting to bring him a pillow and blanket when you make him sleep on the couch.... I don't know.. if anyone is reading this, they must think I am insane. I just love Jim. I get worried, I don't understand why this man would choose to spend his life with me. I know me, honestly I do, and I really don't treat him as well as I should... I am working on it, but I just really feel lucky, and blessed, and lucky.... that he chooses to stay with me. He makes me so happy!!!!!! (I am not a happy person by nature..so it might not show as much as it should) -- So, I guess this was just an open letter to let everyone know that I love Jim, and that I am sorry that I didn't shout it from the rafters all this time.... I love him I love him I love him :)
I guess sometimes we have this theory in our head of how our relationship is going to be perfect, and everything is going to go well, and there will never be fights, just love, and sex and laughter..and we freak out when it does not really happen that way.. but what I have.. right now, today, with Jim... is the best, most perfect thing I have ever felt... EVER!
I love you Jim...
Happy Anniversary Jan 6 2006
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Angel Chasse (again)
When we first met, I made a ton of mistakes. The worst of those mistakes was running to my mom every time we had a normal, average, married people do this kind of fight. The reason I say that this was the worst mistake is... it gave my mom and dad the wrong idea about Jim. Jim is caring, loving, sweet, respectful, treats me better than I deserve, and better than I treat him. But see, for the first couple of years of our marriage, they didn't know this. They didn't know Jim very well, and when they did hear about him, it was through me, and many times after we had had a fight, and I was steamed. I just want to tell everyone that that was wrong. Choosing to marry Jim is the one, single, best decision I have ever made. Probably the best one that I will ever make. Jim and I have had our share of fights, and disagree on many things. But he loves me, and I love him. The kind of love that makes you feel badly about ignoring him, while you are ignoring him... the kind of love that has you wanting to bring him a pillow and blanket when you make him sleep on the couch.... I don't know.. if anyone is reading this, they must think I am insane. I just love Jim. I get worried, I don't understand why this man would choose to spend his life with me. I know me, honestly I do, and I really don't treat him as well as I should... I am working on it, but I just really feel lucky, and blessed, and lucky.... that he chooses to stay with me. He makes me so happy!!!!!! (I am not a happy person by nature..so it might not show as much as it should) -- So, I guess this was just an open letter to let everyone know that I love Jim, and that I am sorry that I didn't shout it from the rafters all this time.... I love him I love him I love him :)
I guess sometimes we have this theory in our head of how our relationship is going to be perfect, and everything is going to go well, and there will never be fights, just love, and sex and laughter..and we freak out when it does not really happen that way.. but what I have.. right now, today, with Jim... is the best, most perfect thing I have ever felt... EVER!
I love you Jim...
Happy Anniversary Jan 6 2006
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Angel Chasse (again)
12/31/2005
GoodBye 2005 -- Hello 2006!!!
In 2005:
*these are just the highlights, I am sure that there is a ton that I have forgotten*
I started this blog (thanks to Rosie)
Jim and I had our 7th wedding anniversary on Jan 6th
We moved to Sioux City - Memorial Day weekend
My first (ever) niece was born July 20th
I turned 27 - Jim turned 32
I went to Louisiana to work in a Red Cross shelter - and came home with salmonella (ick)
Got a car from a friend who upgraded his.. that was pretty cool, and needed :)
We just moved to a different more modern apartment across the lawn
I know I don't update this thing daily, but I love blogging, and I love to read other people's blogs as well. Not a lot of other things happened - unless I am forgetting a bunch.. and if that is the case I will update :)
Plans for NYE --- Eat a frozen pizza -- watch the ball drop -- wait to hear from my brother tomorrow to see if he gets into any trouble tonight ;)
Angel Chasse *again*
*these are just the highlights, I am sure that there is a ton that I have forgotten*
I started this blog (thanks to Rosie)
Jim and I had our 7th wedding anniversary on Jan 6th
We moved to Sioux City - Memorial Day weekend
My first (ever) niece was born July 20th
I turned 27 - Jim turned 32
I went to Louisiana to work in a Red Cross shelter - and came home with salmonella (ick)
Got a car from a friend who upgraded his.. that was pretty cool, and needed :)
We just moved to a different more modern apartment across the lawn
I know I don't update this thing daily, but I love blogging, and I love to read other people's blogs as well. Not a lot of other things happened - unless I am forgetting a bunch.. and if that is the case I will update :)
Plans for NYE --- Eat a frozen pizza -- watch the ball drop -- wait to hear from my brother tomorrow to see if he gets into any trouble tonight ;)
Angel Chasse *again*
12/20/2005
Moving...Busy..I hate moving!
12/20/05
We are moving *literally, I have almost nothing in this old apartment* to a different apartment that is in the house next door to this one. It has been gutted and redone, new walls, new floors, new paint, new bathtub and sink, the whole thing. It doesn't have a lot in the way of storage, but that is really it's only downfall.. Oh, and the computer will be in the living room, so that will be a little different but I will adjust :)
So anyway, I hate moving.. and so far all I have done is pack and unpack and clean... The boys (Sam and Jim) have been carting everything over. Its down the stairs here, across the lawn, and then up the new stairs.. not much fun... can you tell that I hate moving?
So, the internet and tv and all that is supposed to start up again tomorrow, so I will be back on track, but I think that by Friday, we should have most everything unpacked. A lot of stuff is going into a big makeshift closet or the garage, so there will be some that I don't even have to unpack :) LOL --- ok enough blathering on about this topic :)
Happy Holidays to all!!!!!!!
Angel Chasse (again)
We are moving *literally, I have almost nothing in this old apartment* to a different apartment that is in the house next door to this one. It has been gutted and redone, new walls, new floors, new paint, new bathtub and sink, the whole thing. It doesn't have a lot in the way of storage, but that is really it's only downfall.. Oh, and the computer will be in the living room, so that will be a little different but I will adjust :)
So anyway, I hate moving.. and so far all I have done is pack and unpack and clean... The boys (Sam and Jim) have been carting everything over. Its down the stairs here, across the lawn, and then up the new stairs.. not much fun... can you tell that I hate moving?
So, the internet and tv and all that is supposed to start up again tomorrow, so I will be back on track, but I think that by Friday, we should have most everything unpacked. A lot of stuff is going into a big makeshift closet or the garage, so there will be some that I don't even have to unpack :) LOL --- ok enough blathering on about this topic :)
Happy Holidays to all!!!!!!!
Angel Chasse (again)
11/30/2005
Snow Snow Snow
I have to say, I am a fan of winter, so I am happy that it is snowing.. but it's weird... I like the snow, I like to look at it, and I like to see it, but I don't like to drive in it. How does that work? LOL - Good thing Jim doesn't really mind it much.
The car that our friend Tim gave us is working great. I really think he should me moved to Saint for giving us that car :) He said it never started in the winter, and that remains to be seen, but so far, you just have to crank it over and give it a bit of gas *its fuel injected, so he probably didnt do that when he had it, you shouldn't have to* anyway, its been working out VERY well. Finally got rid of the van, and someone even gave us a couple dollars AND towed that baby away ;) woo hoo..
Making a big pot of chili tonight. We make it simply, and with beans :) But it will be just the right thing for the chilly night (punny) -- I see that Rosie's blog says that her Christmas store will be up and runnning soon. Maybe I can con Jim into buying me something from there :) - I remember a while ago she said that she had mousepads and shirts that said Go Blog Urself :) FUNNY..
I have been noticing that I use ... (elipses) a lot. But I only usually type two of the dots, and it is supposed to be three. I also noticed that I am losing some of my knowledge from HS and stuff. I know if you don't use it you lose it, but it has been shocking to me just how much I don't use it, and how much I am losing.. urgh.
I also read on the web ( I think, or maybe Jim told me) that people have their blogs published as books ;) LOL @ that. I don't think I will ever be doing that, but I know that Lu's blog would make a good book :)
I have been wondering though if there was an easier, one step way to print all the posts of your blog.. so far I dont think so. I guess you'd have to just go into each entry and print them. I would probably like to have a copy of mine, just to keep in a binder, and look back and read to see how I was, and how I am now.. LOL - that sounds funny.. reading back to see how you were :)
Angel Chasse (again)
The car that our friend Tim gave us is working great. I really think he should me moved to Saint for giving us that car :) He said it never started in the winter, and that remains to be seen, but so far, you just have to crank it over and give it a bit of gas *its fuel injected, so he probably didnt do that when he had it, you shouldn't have to* anyway, its been working out VERY well. Finally got rid of the van, and someone even gave us a couple dollars AND towed that baby away ;) woo hoo..
Making a big pot of chili tonight. We make it simply, and with beans :) But it will be just the right thing for the chilly night (punny) -- I see that Rosie's blog says that her Christmas store will be up and runnning soon. Maybe I can con Jim into buying me something from there :) - I remember a while ago she said that she had mousepads and shirts that said Go Blog Urself :) FUNNY..
I have been noticing that I use ... (elipses) a lot. But I only usually type two of the dots, and it is supposed to be three. I also noticed that I am losing some of my knowledge from HS and stuff. I know if you don't use it you lose it, but it has been shocking to me just how much I don't use it, and how much I am losing.. urgh.
I also read on the web ( I think, or maybe Jim told me) that people have their blogs published as books ;) LOL @ that. I don't think I will ever be doing that, but I know that Lu's blog would make a good book :)
I have been wondering though if there was an easier, one step way to print all the posts of your blog.. so far I dont think so. I guess you'd have to just go into each entry and print them. I would probably like to have a copy of mine, just to keep in a binder, and look back and read to see how I was, and how I am now.. LOL - that sounds funny.. reading back to see how you were :)
Angel Chasse (again)
11/27/2005
Must Blog More Often, Must Blog More Often
11/27/05 Sunday
Let's see :)
Had a happy thanksgiving. I hope that everyone I know did too.
Got to hold my 3 month old niece, and that makes me happy :)
Plus, got to see the relatives from my mom's side of the family, love that. We don't make it the two hours to visit them very often, so it is always nice when they come here :)
Went to wal-mart at like noon on Friday. Got in there, saw what a zoo it was , and we high tailed it back home.
I have a pain in my lower back, on the right side, and according to the dr its just a sore muscle. All my other tests were fine. I am glad it is nothing, but I wish this NOTHING would STOP hurting now. I know I have a low tolerance for pain, but geeeesh!!
Made up some Christmas cards :) - Realized doing that that I don't know very many addresses. There are a few people I will have to email for their address. No wonder I usually send Ecards... no work there, I have everyone's email ;) -- I guess I didn't mean it like it sounded. I love to personalize ecards, I just love that you dont need stamps, and don't need to know the physical address and write on the envelopes.. my handwriting is so horrible .... urgh
Simple as ever punch we made for thanksgiving. Just a half gallon of orange sherbet, and a 2 liter bottle of sprite. Very very tasty, and soooooo not hard ;)
I think I will make Rachael Ray's 5 minute fudge for Christmas!!!!
*I am so happy to see Rachael Ray on all these shows teaching people how to cook her way... I know there are some RR haters out there, but I am not one of them!!!!
Looks like they are saying that we are going to have some rain then frizzle, then snow. Last time we got all rian, and only enough snow to turn things white. So, we will see this time..
So this will be snow # 2 for this season :)
Ok, that is about enough rambling for now....
OH PS... Poll for any readers.
If you found a $20.00 bill on the ground, in a parking lot, would you pick it up and keep it, or do something else? Be honest ;)
PSS... we found 20 dollars on the ground in a parking lot, and we kept it... just so you know :)
Angel Chasse (again)
Let's see :)
Had a happy thanksgiving. I hope that everyone I know did too.
Got to hold my 3 month old niece, and that makes me happy :)
Plus, got to see the relatives from my mom's side of the family, love that. We don't make it the two hours to visit them very often, so it is always nice when they come here :)
Went to wal-mart at like noon on Friday. Got in there, saw what a zoo it was , and we high tailed it back home.
I have a pain in my lower back, on the right side, and according to the dr its just a sore muscle. All my other tests were fine. I am glad it is nothing, but I wish this NOTHING would STOP hurting now. I know I have a low tolerance for pain, but geeeesh!!
Made up some Christmas cards :) - Realized doing that that I don't know very many addresses. There are a few people I will have to email for their address. No wonder I usually send Ecards... no work there, I have everyone's email ;) -- I guess I didn't mean it like it sounded. I love to personalize ecards, I just love that you dont need stamps, and don't need to know the physical address and write on the envelopes.. my handwriting is so horrible .... urgh
Simple as ever punch we made for thanksgiving. Just a half gallon of orange sherbet, and a 2 liter bottle of sprite. Very very tasty, and soooooo not hard ;)
I think I will make Rachael Ray's 5 minute fudge for Christmas!!!!
*I am so happy to see Rachael Ray on all these shows teaching people how to cook her way... I know there are some RR haters out there, but I am not one of them!!!!
Looks like they are saying that we are going to have some rain then frizzle, then snow. Last time we got all rian, and only enough snow to turn things white. So, we will see this time..
So this will be snow # 2 for this season :)
Ok, that is about enough rambling for now....
OH PS... Poll for any readers.
If you found a $20.00 bill on the ground, in a parking lot, would you pick it up and keep it, or do something else? Be honest ;)
PSS... we found 20 dollars on the ground in a parking lot, and we kept it... just so you know :)
Angel Chasse (again)
11/19/2005
How does this happen???
11-19-05 Saturday
How does it happen that you ASPIRE to lyrics like this.. that you have not made it to this point yet, but you hope that you can GET to this point soon.... sad sad sad... we will only see in hidsight how this all works out, but for now, it seems sad to me that you can aspire to what these lyrics say, and not even be there yet.. but there I am ... here I am.. however that works.....
I'm Movin On - Performed by Rascal Flatts
Ive dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
Ive found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once Im at peace with myself
Ive been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
Im movin’ on
Ive lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but theyre always the same
They mean no harm but its time that I face it
Theyll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I dont belong
Im movin on
Im movin on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarentees, but Im not alone
There comes a time in everyones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldnt
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
Ive loved like I should but lived like I shouldnt
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
Im movin on
Im movin on
Im movin on
Angel Chasse (again)
How does it happen that you ASPIRE to lyrics like this.. that you have not made it to this point yet, but you hope that you can GET to this point soon.... sad sad sad... we will only see in hidsight how this all works out, but for now, it seems sad to me that you can aspire to what these lyrics say, and not even be there yet.. but there I am ... here I am.. however that works.....
I'm Movin On - Performed by Rascal Flatts
Ive dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
Ive found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once Im at peace with myself
Ive been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
Im movin’ on
Ive lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but theyre always the same
They mean no harm but its time that I face it
Theyll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I dont belong
Im movin on
Im movin on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarentees, but Im not alone
There comes a time in everyones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldnt
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
Ive loved like I should but lived like I shouldnt
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
Im movin on
Im movin on
Im movin on
Angel Chasse (again)
11/16/2005
First Snow
11/16/2005 Tuesday
Hey,
It snowed yesterday, all day. Flurries, and not much of it is actually on the ground, cuz the ground was warm, so it melted and now is a bit slick outside (so I have heard, I have not been out today) It's COLD outside though. When we got up this morning it was 50 degrees in our apartment.. We live in an apartment within a house, an old house, and the heater is the same heater for the whole house. One major room of our apt is storage, and kitty box, and computer and desk... well.. it's a 3 season porch... soooooo... we are supposed to not use it in the winter.. but if we don't, major space loss, and major having to put the kitty box in the bedroom *where we sleep ick* or in the kitchen *ick* or in the living room *ICK ICK* so anyway, I think that the plastic Sam and Jim put up will help some, but we still have to run a space heater in our "heat paid by landlord" apartment.. URGH - just when our electric bill was under control, no more A/C 24 hours a day... urgh... anyway, I am thankful we have a place to live, and that it is as warm as it is. I know many have less. I am also thankful for my husband, and my mom and dad and brother, and my friends... I don't have many of them (friends) but the ones that I do have are really great, and they mean a lot to me... and if anyone who happens to read this has any spare good vibes.. Jimbo could use them - he's finishing up his research paper and the professor made him narrow it down so much that he is less than thrilled... anyway.... First snow, first snow :):)
Angel Chasse (again)
Hey,
It snowed yesterday, all day. Flurries, and not much of it is actually on the ground, cuz the ground was warm, so it melted and now is a bit slick outside (so I have heard, I have not been out today) It's COLD outside though. When we got up this morning it was 50 degrees in our apartment.. We live in an apartment within a house, an old house, and the heater is the same heater for the whole house. One major room of our apt is storage, and kitty box, and computer and desk... well.. it's a 3 season porch... soooooo... we are supposed to not use it in the winter.. but if we don't, major space loss, and major having to put the kitty box in the bedroom *where we sleep ick* or in the kitchen *ick* or in the living room *ICK ICK* so anyway, I think that the plastic Sam and Jim put up will help some, but we still have to run a space heater in our "heat paid by landlord" apartment.. URGH - just when our electric bill was under control, no more A/C 24 hours a day... urgh... anyway, I am thankful we have a place to live, and that it is as warm as it is. I know many have less. I am also thankful for my husband, and my mom and dad and brother, and my friends... I don't have many of them (friends) but the ones that I do have are really great, and they mean a lot to me... and if anyone who happens to read this has any spare good vibes.. Jimbo could use them - he's finishing up his research paper and the professor made him narrow it down so much that he is less than thrilled... anyway.... First snow, first snow :):)
Angel Chasse (again)
11/11/2005
Happy Veteran's Day
11/11/2005
To those who have served, and even to those that will serve in the future.
I owe you a huge debt. You keep me safe, you keep me comfortable in my little apartment in middle America. You lift the burden off of all of our shoulders.
I respect all who have served more than you can imagine. You go and do what I can't, what I won't, and what I don't want to do.... Thank you doesn't begin to say it... But, Thank you...
Now, there is a Garth Brooks boxed set coming out soon, at www.walmart.com and one of the songs that will be on the "lost sessions" CD is this one......
Last Night I Had The Strangest Dream
Words and music by Ed McCurdy
Last night I had the strangest dream
I'd ever dreamed before
I dreamed the world had all agreed
To put an end to war
I dreamed I saw a mighty room
Filled with women and men
And the paper they were signing said
They'd never fight again
And when the paper was all signed
And a million copies made
They all joined hands and bowed their heads
And grateful prayers were prayed
And the people in the streets below
Were dancing 'round and 'round
While swords and guns and uniforms
Were scattered on the ground
Last night I had the strangest dream
I'd never dreamed before
I dreamed the world had all agreed
To put an end to war.
I love the soldiers, and hate this war... Call me a contradiction
Angel Chasse (again)
To those who have served, and even to those that will serve in the future.
I owe you a huge debt. You keep me safe, you keep me comfortable in my little apartment in middle America. You lift the burden off of all of our shoulders.
I respect all who have served more than you can imagine. You go and do what I can't, what I won't, and what I don't want to do.... Thank you doesn't begin to say it... But, Thank you...
Now, there is a Garth Brooks boxed set coming out soon, at www.walmart.com and one of the songs that will be on the "lost sessions" CD is this one......
Last Night I Had The Strangest Dream
Words and music by Ed McCurdy
Last night I had the strangest dream
I'd ever dreamed before
I dreamed the world had all agreed
To put an end to war
I dreamed I saw a mighty room
Filled with women and men
And the paper they were signing said
They'd never fight again
And when the paper was all signed
And a million copies made
They all joined hands and bowed their heads
And grateful prayers were prayed
And the people in the streets below
Were dancing 'round and 'round
While swords and guns and uniforms
Were scattered on the ground
Last night I had the strangest dream
I'd never dreamed before
I dreamed the world had all agreed
To put an end to war.
I love the soldiers, and hate this war... Call me a contradiction
Angel Chasse (again)
11/10/2005
Blog Blog Blog
I think I have had this blog since April... strange that I would keep it going for this long, most of my paper journals have 1 or 2 pages in them, and then nothing... I am not sure that it is helping though, I am still the same old same old confused, lazy, grouchy me... I don't want to stop really though, cuz I feel like I still want to say some stuff. I just don't know what.
Oh, I do have one thing that bothers me... and though this is not INTENDED to offend, I am sure there are a few people that read this that will feel that way..
Why is it that people who belong to a certain religion feel the need to aproach people? I mean.. logically, I understand it... they are supposed to witness their faith to others. But man, it is SOOOOOOO annoying. For others, maybe not so much, but me? I really don't want to meet any new people for ANY reason, much less for them to be overbearing and bitchy, and not lay off, and try to get me to join their way of thinking about things... urgh, that really sucks to me.
Let's see, what else have I been doing? NOTHING :)
Nah, Jim is about to start actually writing his research paper, so he has been studying, as well as helping our landlord with handyman stuff. I joined a book club to get some books for people for Christmas, and I am looking for a poster print from "The Color of Money" for my dad to put on his wall in the basement, by where his pool table will be. Got Mom some books and some lotion, got my niece some Baby Einstein DVD's - Gift card for my brother and my sister probably.. they are hard to buy for, and I hate it when people hate their gifts. Got Jim a couple of books, and got me 2 Rachael Ray cookbooks, including the new one :) WOO HOO
I have gotten to see my brother a lot more often, because he comes over every night for supper for the last 2 weeks. How much is too much? That is yet to be seen I guess :) -- He has court on the 15th, and might have to go to jail for 45 days, cuz of some unpaid fines.. 100% his fault, but still sucky if he has to be gone, especially over the holidays. I just hope that if he does have to go, that it is here in town, so at least I could visit if I want. So, seeing him a lot, and being annoyed by him, but happy to see him .. I wonder if he just comes over for the food?? LOL LOL
Been reading Rosie's Blog.. entertaining, and political, and fun.
Been reading Lu's Blog, funny, well written, introspective, love it!
Been reading Cindy's Blog, there is something going on there.. but I don't know what
Ok, rambling...
Angel Chasse (again)
Oh, I do have one thing that bothers me... and though this is not INTENDED to offend, I am sure there are a few people that read this that will feel that way..
Why is it that people who belong to a certain religion feel the need to aproach people? I mean.. logically, I understand it... they are supposed to witness their faith to others. But man, it is SOOOOOOO annoying. For others, maybe not so much, but me? I really don't want to meet any new people for ANY reason, much less for them to be overbearing and bitchy, and not lay off, and try to get me to join their way of thinking about things... urgh, that really sucks to me.
Let's see, what else have I been doing? NOTHING :)
Nah, Jim is about to start actually writing his research paper, so he has been studying, as well as helping our landlord with handyman stuff. I joined a book club to get some books for people for Christmas, and I am looking for a poster print from "The Color of Money" for my dad to put on his wall in the basement, by where his pool table will be. Got Mom some books and some lotion, got my niece some Baby Einstein DVD's - Gift card for my brother and my sister probably.. they are hard to buy for, and I hate it when people hate their gifts. Got Jim a couple of books, and got me 2 Rachael Ray cookbooks, including the new one :) WOO HOO
I have gotten to see my brother a lot more often, because he comes over every night for supper for the last 2 weeks. How much is too much? That is yet to be seen I guess :) -- He has court on the 15th, and might have to go to jail for 45 days, cuz of some unpaid fines.. 100% his fault, but still sucky if he has to be gone, especially over the holidays. I just hope that if he does have to go, that it is here in town, so at least I could visit if I want. So, seeing him a lot, and being annoyed by him, but happy to see him .. I wonder if he just comes over for the food?? LOL LOL
Been reading Rosie's Blog.. entertaining, and political, and fun.
Been reading Lu's Blog, funny, well written, introspective, love it!
Been reading Cindy's Blog, there is something going on there.. but I don't know what
Ok, rambling...
Angel Chasse (again)
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