My 28th Birthday.... and stuff

First off, Hi Dr Deb.... I'm keeping fudgy brownies and ice cold milk at all times in my blog lobby, for your visits :) Help yourself please :)

Ok, now... My husband...

He got me a very nice, very very nice birthday present. A 5 megapixel digital camera! Now, I am no photographer...but I need to become one. This thing does Sepia pictures, shots where you take a picture of a background, then of a person in front that same background, and it will impose it on there for you... yadda yadda, its a GREAT camera..

I should have taken over to my parent's house when my sister brought my niece down to celebrate her 1st birthday. But, I just got it that day, and it needed to charge.. so... I will flickr some of the "first cake" pictures soon :)

I hate to say it, but almost better than the camera, was that I was under the impression that the flat panel monitor we got was my birthday present, and I thought (still think) it is great... but no, Jim said that I deserved to have a non "household" item that was just for me... that was cool :) And, the ultra mushy, made me cry card that went with it was probably the best of all of it. So, surprise, great card, camera, mug with teddy bear in it.... what can get better than that right? WELL, its not even my birthday, so it was EARLY :):):)

Now, I will admit that there have been plenty of years that Jim and I couldn't, for whatever reason, buy each other lavish gifts for our birthdays, but sometimes, it really is nice to get something that you have been wanting, but something that semed a little out of your reach :) THANKS JIM :):):)

But, on a different note, I will be 28 on my birthday, August 4th. I am a bit upset, because in my plans in my head, I would have had one (or two) children that were like, probably 5 to 8 years old.... well folks, that just did not happen. The more and more that I obsess over this topic, the more and more I have settled with the fact that I really need to just accept the fact that I will not be giving birth to or having children, and enjoy life as it is right now. I know, I know.. it could happen, we could adopt...all of those things.. but really, sometimes I think it is better to just accept the cold hard facts, and find a way to move on from it. Well, I am not a success story like that yet, but I am working on it. I will let ya know how it turns out (not sure who the ya is that I referenced there) LOL

In other news, my sister did come down this past Friday, and things were very nice. Visiting with her was great. I know that she was holding her tongue at times, but I hope that the experience was nice for her as well.

One of my best friends had her 2nd child, and her son shares now a birthday with my niece :) I thought that was very spiffy...

Let's see.. what else? Oh not much. Looking for a used car, as ours is about shot.. not fun to do, not fun for me anyway... :) Looking at new cars that you can't afford... now THAT can take hours and hours away from your day ;) :):)

Thanks for reading :)

Angel (again)

3000 Visits!!!

My blog counter says I have had 3000 visits to this blog :) -- I am not sure how many of those visits were ME :) but... anyway.. I feel good about people wanting to hear what I have to say... Hrmmm.. that is probably not good... I'll have to look it up *kidding*

It was soooooooooo hot this past week here. One window air conditioner did not do it with the humidity and such. It got to be 80 in here with AC on. BUT... we borrowed a second one, and now it is a coooooool house I live in :)

Let's see, what else is new? Jim is still working the summer job. He works mostly 3pm to 11pm so that leaves me a lot of spare time :( but.. it is not tough, it's air conditioned there.. so not bad. He does have my birthday off (August 4th I will be 28) -- so... we will do something, not sure what, but something. I already got my birthday present early though. A 17" flat panel monitor for our computer. I am pretty excited about getting that, does that make me a geek? :):):)

I tried some tooth whitening gel on my teeth. I don't think it worked very well, but it was worth the try.

My brother is staying at our house. He needed a place to crash. I fear for him that we are just enabling his irresponsibility. He is a person with great intentions.. but rarely follows through. I am not one to talk. I am not perfect. I know this. But, I can honestly say that I try to treat people well. Sam (my brother) sometimes really only thinks of himself. And, he looks out for #1.. even if it means ripping a friend, or relative, or MOM off. I hope that this changes in him soon. I do feel like I should let him stay here, because I don't want him to live on the "street" but....... wow.. sometimes it is hard to try to help someone out.... but anyway... I chose to invite him in, so I will deal. I just hope that he doesn't drive me, AND my hubby to drink .... KIDDING :)

Another hot day tomorrow. 101 degrees and humid. LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!! NOT

Stay cool guys :) If you read all of this, you deserve a brownie and a big cold glass of milk :) :) :)


Angel Chasse (again)
July 18th 2006 627PM

Why Haven't I Blogged'?

Why haven't I blogged lately?

I am not sure...
It's not cuz I haven't had time.
It's not cuz I haven't had anything to say.
It's not cuz I haven't WANTED to blog....
But...
I fear it is because I have not had anything nice or positive to say lately, so I have been trying not to turn this into my bitchy blog.

I have been sad. I have been cranky, I have been busy trying to quiet the voices in my head. I have been worrying. I have been obsessing. EWWWWW!

So, August 1st I will be setting up seeing a new Dr. - I hope that there is help out there. It feels like I have been on every pill, done every treatment, prayed every prayer. I can't seem to keep myself feeling better. I am weak, and when the least little thing goes wrong, it seems to push me down so much I can't get back up.

I *know* that it can get better ...blahblahblah

But what I don't know, is how people do it... how they keep going when they don't want to. When they feel sad and confused day in and day out, and that makes them cranky and irritable, and a pain in the neck for everyone around them?

It seems that I am annoyed... hurt... sad... upset...angry... one of these emotions.. more times than I am happy..joyful...hopeful...useful -- these days..

So, here's to hoping that August is a better month than July has been so far ;)

Angel Chasse (again)